still_grrr | 015 Wished I Could Have Saved You (Reply)

Title Wished I Could Have Saved You
Author lauratd
Rating G
Word Count 214
Prompt015, "Ballad for Dead Friends"-Dashboard Prophets
Characters/Pairing (if any) Spike

It's me again Luv, here for a bit o' whiskey and weepin'
Can you even hear me or am I just talking to myself like a bloody fool?
Do angels even listen to the prayers of the soulless?

How are you feeling
Do you feel ok?
Cos I don't

Wish I knew where you are. how you are. If things was right and fair, you'd be in Heaven. But life isn't fair and death sure as hell isn't

It keeps me reelin'
Will I ever be the same?
No I won't

Used to be so sure of who I was, what I was, what I wanted. Then you entered the picture and nothin's made any kind of sense since. Used to think if I could only get you out of my life, I'd be right again. But now you're gone, and everythin's all sorts of wrong.

Its a cold day in a cold world
I really wished I could have saved you
Then who would save me from myself?

I go over it in my head... over and over...
If I'd been faster, more clever... You'd still be here
But I wasn't.
I was too slow.
Wasn't there when I was needed.
Broke my promise to you, I did,

Right now, well, I could use a stiff drink
To kill the pain that's deep inside my bones

I let you down.
Done a lot of evil things, but that is the only thing I truly regret,. and there's not enough whiskey in the world to numb the pain of it.
Doesn't stop me from tryin' though.

I'll never forget you
I'll never forget you
I'll never forget you
I'll never forget you

I really wished I could have saved you
I really wished I could have saved you
I really wished I could have saved you
I really wished I could have saved you