039: Fiction
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still_grrrAuthor: montana_rosalie
Rating: G
Word Count: 355
Prompt: never leave me
Pairing: Spike/other
A/N: A continuation of a BDD
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nme0621 wrote for me back in July. You can read it here if you want.
I can't take this kind of pain. It's physical even though it's not, and after a while I find it hard to breathe.
His hand is cold holding mine, smooth like stone, like the bench we're sitting on. Still, it warms me from the inside, and I can't think about the future if he's not going to be a part of it.
''Never leave me'', I whisper, locking my gaze onto his blue one, as if I could convince him not to go just by looking at him.
''We've already been through this'', he says, and his voice echoes in my ears a dozen times. It's tired and sad, so sad that tears well up in my eyes even though I've sworn not to cry. I blink a few times and concentrate on his hand, desperate not to break down before he's really gone.
He releases my hand and lay his gently against my face.
My eyes close and tears break through the lashes, hot and persistent, flowing down my cheeks. He knows I'm crying and it hurts me even more than my bleeding heart.
''Love, please'', his tone is pleading as he puts his arms around me. I hide my face in the curve of his neck, holding onto him as tight as I can. Tears fall and fall, and I can't do a thing to stop them. It's his power, and he won't use it this time. He presses his lips against my temple and shifts me into his lap. My face is resting against his silent chest, so solid that it's impossible to believe that he could ever be gone.
I wake up alone in our bed, and my heart races instantly. I start to panic even before I call out his name and no one answers. I race with myself down the stairs and into the garden, but it's empty; his bags are gone and he is gone too. I crumble to the ground, feeling a hole expanding in my chest, leaving me destroyed.
''Never leave me'', I whisper, staring at the moon and rocking back and forth. No one answers.
