022 Unseen: The Letter

[okdeanna.livejournal.com]

Title: The Letter

Author: OKDeanna

Rating: PG

Word Count: 243, Ficlet

Prompt: 022, Unseen

Characters/Pairing (if any): Buffy/Spike

Post: Grave, Season 6
A/N: This story has a 100 word drabble prequel called, Darkness Calls

 

Buffy found the note on the floor of his crypt, crumpled and riddled with dust. She didn’t know why she hadn’t seen it before. Why Clem hadn’t seen it before. But now that she’d found it, she wished like hell she could erase it.

 

His brief words burned into her mind. Their desolate tone doing nothing to ease the ache within her chest.

 

She missed him. She didn’t want to. Didn’t plan to really. But the feeling was there. Inside her. Whenever she thought about him. And as much as she’d like to deny it, she thought about him a lot. More than she should. More than she wanted. More than she needed.

 

He hurt her, yes. And what he did, what he tried to do…that wasn’t something she could forget. Ever. But he wasn’t alone in it. He wasn’t a monster for it. Not really.

 

She glanced down at the letter in her hands, the moisture in her eyes blurring his hasty scrawl.

 

Spike thought she wouldn’t understand. That she wouldn’t get it. But she did. Oh, how she did. She knew why it happened. She knew why he snapped. It didn’t make it okay. But she got it. She knew.

 

He reached his limit. He lost control. Because of her. Her…abuse.

 

She shut her eyelids, screwing them closed tight, and dropped into his favorite chair, the paper tumbling from her fingers back onto the ground.

 

“Oh God. What have I done?”

 

Comments

[debris4spike]

That was lovely - thanks for sharing

Thank you!

[okdeanna.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you liked the story. It's actually only my second BTVS story to post online, and my first to post here. Been a reader for ages and finally decided to join in on the fun. :-)

[lauratd.livejournal.com]

Interesting take on Buffy's pov at that point. You did a good job of ballancing the wrongness of what he did with the part Buffy did play in it.

Thank you for commenting, lauratd!

[okdeanna.livejournal.com]

This is actually a follow up to a 100 word Drabble I wrote called Darkness Calls. It's the actual letter Spike wrote to Buffy. :-)

[xlivvielockex.livejournal.com]

Welcome to the community. Always glad when someone decides to delurk and post something for us all to enjoy.

Really interesting look at Buffy's headspace after what happened. You really got into her head, showing not only his part but her part as well.

If you want, you can link the first part of the story in your A/N so people can see both sides.

[okdeanna.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the welcome! I'd be toying with posting something for a while, but somehow just never got around to doing a prompt to post. I'm glad I did, though. I had fun writing Spuffy.

Um, I'd love to link to the first part of the story. Forgive me for being daft as it is late, but what does A/N stand for?

[xlivvielockex.livejournal.com]

No problem. Stands for Author's Note. It is usually the last thing people can put in their header. Just abbreviate it A/N to save space. :)

So like it would be
Title:
Author:
...etc
A/N:

[okdeanna.livejournal.com]

Oh man. It must be later than I thought. I so should have known that! I use it all the time when I post my Passions fic. Sigh, off to bed with I...

[divadea.livejournal.com]

Very sweet. Really good take on how Buffy could have been feeling and how something so very wrong can still be seen from various angles.

[okdeanna.livejournal.com]

Thank you, divadea! There are definately a lot of ways to interpret that time for Spuffy. Spike was wrong, very wrong, but...so was Buffy before that. Doesn't excuse what Spike did. And neither does it excuse what Buffy did. It was just bad and confusing all the way around, I think.

[boy-named-susie.livejournal.com]

Welcome to the comm! Nice to see a newbie.

Interesting take on the prompt. Well done.

[okdeanna.livejournal.com]

Thank you. It's nice to be here. :-)

[wereleopard58.livejournal.com]

that was so sad and tragic. beautifully written