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OK; to be perfectly honest, I'm not even 100% sure this even qualifies as fanfiction. But my muse told me to write this.

We go on, no matter what. Our firm has always been here, in one form or another.
- Holland Manners


Title: Us And Them
Author: Beer Good ([livejournal.com profile] beer_good_foamy)
Rating: PG13
Word Count: ~1000
Characters/Pairing: OC
Prompt: 036 – Wolfram & Hart

Us And Them

This is how it starts: Kill, protect, eat.

He has to get close. Gakha sneaks up, downwind from his prey, bare feet sinking in the snow. Closer, wrapping the sheep's skin tighter around himself against the biting cold and to hide his scent. He's just a few feet away when the hart raises its head and turns to him, unaccustomed to this new enemy, looks in his eyes. Its eyes are alive, almost like Gakha's own, the steam around its muzzle the same as the one from his, the growling in their stomachs the same. They watch each other for what seems like an eternity, but the smell of wooly grasseater seems to calm it and it turns back to the hole it's been scraping in the snow, searching for the frozen moss below.

Gakha jabs the spear into its neck.

It's not the best place, hard to get a direct kill, but it's cold and the wooden weapon is too brittle to pierce the larger animal's chest. The hart screams, jerks the spear out of his hands, tries to run, stumbles, hot red blood spurting out onto the white snow. Shivering, he follows it as its strength runs out, slowing down, sinking to its knees. He picks up a stone. Looks into its eyes, so much more alive than the dumb sheep, so much more. Thinks of the eyes of his children back in the cave and brings the stone down. Crack. Its eyes glaze over, not afraid, not hating, just confused, toppling over, breathing, whimpering, panting, gurgling.

Still.

Gakha kneels beside his kill. Touches the warm fur, hungrily laps up the hot blood. Grabs a leg and starts pulling it homewards. It's getting dark and he's still far from home when he hears the howls, sees the shadows running under the trees. He hurries, but his load is heavy and it's so cold and there's so many of them. So hungry. He pulls the spear out of the dead hart's neck, screams back at the wolves, stands over his prey, waiting. Us or them.

This is how it starts: in blood and soot.

The flames dance across the cave walls as Gakha stumbles inside, gasping from the effort to take the last few steps. His wives and children run towards him, catching him as he falls. He lets them carry him to the warmest corner while First Wife goes outside to drag in what's left of the hart. As the women do women's work (carving, gutting, tanning, preparing) Gakha tells the children of his great hunt, of fighting off the wolves, of killing three of them even after they made off with half the meat, even after they wounded him. He dips shaking fingers in blood and draws their images on the wall, tries to impart, teach, impress before it's too late. The Wolf: danger, killer, evil. The Ram: warmth, protection, safety. The Hart: noble, beautiful, food. Never forget: need them, fear them. He holds his oldest son, squeezing his arm as hard as he can: Never forget.

They feast that night. Gakha, with no appetite, watches his children gorge themselves, blood running down their chins. They huddle from the cold around the small fire, and Gakha falls asleep against Third Wife's pregnant belly, his pain fading away.

In the morning, they carry his corpse outside, well away from the cave. The ground is frozen, no chance to dig a grave, so they wrap him in the sheep's skin (he must need it, he's so cold) and bury him in the snow. The children whimper, but the women tell them to be brave; there's still many many days of winter, and at least now they have meat. For a while.

Afterwards, the sons go out to search for wood, as they've done every day of their lives. Only today, they come back not only with firewood but also with sleek, strong branches that they sharpen into spears as night falls, hearing the wolves digging through the snow outside. Pahk picks up a charred stick from the fire. He's the man now, all of 12 summers. He becomes the first of countless to fill in the images on the cave wall left by his father, first in blood, now in soot and fire: Wolf. Ram. Hart. And underneath, he draws Man. Father. They watch the images in sorrow, fear, respect; there's big magic in this. Them or us. Need them. Fear them. Never forget.

As they go out hunting the next morning, they pause before the drawing. Raise their spears in salute and supplication, eyes gleaming with defiance. One of the boys takes a piece of coal and draws the symbols on his chest; the others follow. The women watch as their children go out into the biting cold, to kill, to protect, hopefully to return and eat.

This is how it starts: in name and deed.

Enough of them do return, of course. And it goes on, no matter what. The images keep getting filled in, in cave after cave, generation after generation, in fear and respect; kill, protect, eat. Them or us. They look at the images, plead with them and hate them, but they don't look into the eyes of their prey anymore. Their spears are getting stronger. Their bows can kill at a distance. Their fires blaze higher. Their clothes are warmer. They move into huts, teepees, houses. The cold doesn't bite like it used to. They drive the wolves back. At some point, they abandon the caves completely. And it goes on, no matter what. In blood and soot and fire, though they know how to kill with the push of a button or the scratch of a pen; though they devise laws to protect; though they eat sushi and drink espresso.

But on a granite wall in the back of a dark cave, untouched by millennia, the images remain. After all, we mustn't ever forget:

It wasn't us.

We didn't do it.

It was them.

The wolf, the ram, the hart. Their will be done.

Date: 2007-10-24 11:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sueworld2003.livejournal.com
Oh that was excellent love!

Date: 2007-10-25 12:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] slaymesoftly.livejournal.com
Awesome. Forget the cookies, I'll bake you a cake. (Okay, that's a total lie, but it's the thought that counts, right?) Very original and very clever.

Date: 2007-10-25 02:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] divadea.livejournal.com
Wow. This is excellent. Personally I think it does fit the prompt really well. Well done.

Date: 2007-10-25 02:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] divadea.livejournal.com
I was thinking along the lines of W&H in another dimension, another time, even just another city - but needless to say, nothing came out.

Date: 2007-10-25 02:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] firefly124.livejournal.com
Wow. What an amazing take on the origins of W & H.

Date: 2007-10-25 03:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ubiquirk.livejournal.com
When I first read this, I thought it very well written and creative, but a little too human for the origins of Wolfram and Hart. Then I realized (at least for my reading, which may not match your intention) that this is about the humans who will come to serve Wolfram and Hart, not about the Senior Partners. It still lets them off the hook a bit - as if being evil in modern times is the equivalent to fighting for survival, but I like how you show that they attempt to justify it.

Date: 2007-10-27 02:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ubiquirk.livejournal.com
The idea isn't so much to let people off the hook but the exact opposite; that it's so easy to blame someone or something else for our actions

That comes through at the end, and that's why I mention it, but it's offset by most of the piece showing their actions as justifiable. Which leads me to an observation that the use of 3rd person omniscient POV can make it difficult to differentiate between the narrator's outlook and authorial intent. Hmmm. [I don't know what tl;dr is, but I loves me some meta!]

Date: 2007-10-25 07:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] animamea.livejournal.com
I was thinking the same thing, but then I took a moment to make some tuna salad and reconsider my stance.

Not to speak for the author (cos I might be *outrageously* wrong), but I'm gonna use my crayons to fill in the blanks. I could see a small family starting out with these totems, becoming a larger and more powerful family, and having the Senior Partners (back when they were piddly) take those forms to take advantage of the family's influence and/or might.

Date: 2007-10-25 02:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] redrikki.livejournal.com
I really liked this. Not just the underlying message, but the way you used the language. You paint these vivid pictures. The look in the hart's eye, the boys drawing on the wall, all of it. Very evocative and very well done.

Date: 2007-10-29 03:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lauratd.livejournal.com
"It wasn't us.

We didn't do it.

It was them."

and *that* is the root of much of the evil in the world

This was brilliant. Isn't it funny how the best stuff seems to write itself?

Date: 2007-11-08 12:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wereleopard58.livejournal.com
OMG, that was. It totally rocks amazing job

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