82 drabble - Remember

[deird1]

Title: Remember
Author: deird1
Rating: PG
Word Count: 100
Prompt: 082 (envy)
Character: Buffy


Remember

It had been kinda nice.

Being new, and innocent, and excited.
“I’m like a superhero or something!”
She’d staked, and fought, and led, and smiled – actually smiled! It’d felt so natural.
And even though she’d been a bit dumb (No, not dumb. Naïve.), she’d still managed to find a purpose.
“I kill your kind.”
Still managed to find an identity.
“I feel like a Joan.”
To find friends.
“Stay away from Randy!”
It had all seemed so clear.

Buffy sits, and wonders if it makes sense to be jealous of someone who never really existed.
Then she has another drink.
 

Comments

[slaymesoftly.livejournal.com]

Ah - I love "Joan". Wonderfully sad little piece.

[deird1]

Thanks.

[stars-of-tears.livejournal.com]

awww this was so sad. :(
Poor Buffy!

[deird1]

I just want to give her a big hug...

Glad you enjoyed this.

[cmk418]

Neat. I'd never thought of Buffy's perspective after the spell wore off, but it makes perfect sense especially at that point in her life. Very creative and well done!

[deird1]

Thanks!

[divadea.livejournal.com]

What a terrific idea! And very poignantly written.

[deird1]

Thanks!

[angelus2hot]

She was just a little naive as Joan.

Well done as always!

[deird1]

Thanks!

[redrikki.livejournal.com]

Oh, Buffy. Poor girl. I just really like the idea of this.

[deird1]

Thanks.

[(Anonymous)]

Hi,

this is a really beautiful, and effective piece of fanfic. Buffy's only moments of 'real' happiness on the show were when she was Joan, so it's entirely appropriate that there would be a little jealously - and a lot of melancholic reflection too.

I've just seen French movie about a boy who kept on imagining an 'invisible' brother - who turned out to have been real, in the sense that he'd been killed by the nazis before he'd been born.

'Joan' was the Buffy that she wished she could be, but never let herself be - if that makes sense.

Lovely, and a pleasure to read,
Ray (kerkevik@btinternet.com)

[deird1]

I'm glad you liked it.

[a2zmom.livejournal.com]

heartbreaking.

[deird1]

Thanks.

[ubiquirk.livejournal.com]

Great premise and a very poignant look at how much pain she was in for s6!

[deird1]

Thanks!

[riccadonna.livejournal.com]

You really got that feeling right!

[deird1]

Thanks!