still_grrr | Prompt 082: Fiction (Envy)

Fiction:
Title: I Wish I Was Still In Your Dreams
Author: angelus2hot
Rating: G
Word Count: 294
Prompt: 082 Envy
Characters/Pairing: Angel (Buffy/Riley and Buffy/Angel implied)
A/N:

I wander silently through the quiet streets of Sunnydale, ignoring anything that would get in my way. I'm looking for her. I know I shouldn’t be doing this. But I haven’t seen her beautiful face in so long that I’m desperate.

Suddenly I spot her standing in the middle of the sidewalk. She’s in the arms of the boy, oblivious to everything around her but him. And he’s kissing her with such uncontrolled passion I swear I can hear her purring.

A surge of jealousy twists my insides into a knot. I used to be the one that made her purr like that. I wanted to yell at him, tell him that I was the one she dreamed about, the one she wanted to spend her life with. But like an idiot I threw it all away. I can tell by the way that he’s holding her he has no intention of making the same mistake. Damn.

I watch her for a little while longer, unwilling and unable to deny myself the almost unbearable agony of seeing her with someone else. All it would take is just a look, a flash of loneliness across her face and I’d be over there, taking her in my arms and I’d never let her go again. But all I see is the gorgeous smile that she bestows on the man who isn’t me and I envy him. I would give anything to be him, to be the one holding her, loving her.

But I’m not.

With one last look I walk away slowly, leaving the woman that I love in the arms of another man. And even though I wish I were still in her dreams I’m comforted by the fact that she’ll always be in mine. -